“My children, I am writing this to you so that you may not commit sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous one.” 1 John 2:1
Maybe sometimes I expect you to be perfect. I expect perfect grades and perfect behavior and a clean room. I expect you to pay attention in church and want to read instead of play. Sometimes I forget to leave you right where you are, at the age you are, in the place you are. I forget that you need a break sometimes or still like it when I hug you for no reason. I forget sometimes that it is hard for you to express yourself. I forget the joy of riding bikes, and building sandcastles, and playing for hours. Forgive me, mommy is working on it.
My heart is to give you all the things you need. These things cannot be seen but can only be felt in your heart. I want to make sure you know God and all that He is. I want you to know my love and hopes for you. I see such a brilliant, shining future for you and I want your path to be smooth. But I know sometimes you have to make your own mistakes and that I can’t always be there to hold your hand.
Just remember that I do and say things because I love you, because I want you to succeed. I may not always do or say the right thing, but know it is coming from my heart. And even on the days that I fail you, remember, God, He will never fail you.
So close your eyes and dream of your sandcastles and your bikerides. Enjoy all of the days God has given you. And remind me in the morning to embrace your “kidness.” Love you