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To my Jewish Mother, Thank you

Dear Mom,

I wanted to start out by saying thank you, especially for the last four years. I am sure you have gotten your fair share of grief over me and my decision to become a Christian. I stuck a cross on and you stuck by me. I made a decision to follow Jesus and you honored that by still loving me. I cannot imagine that it was easy for you.

I know sometimes that you may not understand my decision, but I know you don’t have too. That’s what unconditional love is all about. You saw my life change and that was enough for you. You saw me happy. You supported me through every phase. When everyone else walked away, you walked towards me. You may not have agreed but it never stopped you from loving the God in me. Our relationship only got stronger, and for that I say a million thank yous.

You see, you do get it. I don’t have to be anything or anyone for you. I don’t have to perform or make a lot of money or be someone else, I can just be me. You let me pray for you, still conduct our Passover seders and joke about how dad still doesn’t believe that Moses parted the Red Sea. Because deep down inside you know the truth- that I will always be Jewish, and nobody can ever take that away from me.

I don’t know how you get it, but you do. It’s not so much in the words you say but the things you do. Like the gifts you give me that I cherish. You know the ones I’m talking about. The ones that have blessings and God and coffee all tied up in one.

I think of Edith’s mother and how she must have felt when her daughter converted. I remember reading about how she was feeling, her pain and her strained love for her daughter. It was hard for me to read about their relationship because I was scared that this could be us. But it never was. Not for one second…

I don’t know if you’ll ever read this. But if you do, know this- you are the embodiment of God’s love for his children. And your faith and fidelity to God as a daughter of Israel is remarkable. You are more learned than a thousand of your brethren who attend Saturday services or High Holy days. You’ve learned that being a good and faithful Jewish person doesn’t mean calling yourself that but living it. The way you treat people, help people, love people. You get it. You just get it.

So this Mother’s day a thousand thank you’s aren’t enough. I cherish you because of who you are and I never fear that you will walk away or ever stop loving me. The God in you is louder and clearer to me than a visit to a thousand churches in a thousand countries. Thank you for letting me be me.

Your daughter,

Melissa

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4 thoughts on “To my Jewish Mother, Thank you

  1. I do not know why I was compelled to check your blog today. I read your beautiful and sensitive piece about me. As the tears flowed I tried to compose myself enough to write this comment to you. My unconditional love for you is beyond measure….. I love you for who you are …..A great daughter, a great mother, a kind and sensitive person, a daughter who can make me laugh when I want to cry, a daughter who wants to help every lost soul in the world and more than anything a daughter who has made me proud since the day I first held you in my arms. What makes me love you is not what religion you are it is the amazing human being you are and always have been. I love you every day, every way, every breathing moment of my life ………. no strings attached, no judging, no complaining, no questions asked ……… being your mother has been the best thing in the world. Most importantly, being your mom is easy, loving you is easy, and life is a lot better with you in it! Love you always …. Mom

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  2. Mom,

    I really don’t know what to say. I was so taken aback that you read my blog and never thought you’d read this post. As you know, sometimes I am not able to express to you the way that I feel, and writing has really always given me that outlet.

    The post was prompted by so many things but started with a journal you gave me in high school before I went off to college. This is what you wrote.

    11-27-94
    Dearest Melissa,
    Your words are beautiful, your poetry divine. May this journal keep those beautiful words coming while you go to Gainesville. May you never stop writing, for the world would suffer greatly. Write about love, about strength, about determination and desire but always know that writing is you! We love you so very much.
    Mom and Dad

    What could I say after reading that? It was God’s power through your words that reminded me what I was meant to do. God has used you so much in my life like that, sometimes when I am an in a dark place it is just so hard for me to hear it.

    You have always been my greatest fan, and for that I am immeasurably grateful. When I have felt like quitting you have reminded me that I am no quitter. When I have chosen a different path, you haves supported me 100%. But see, that’s who you are. You’re no quitter and you don’t back down. You are the embodiment of perseverance.

    So whatever is in my heart, I got that from you. Tenacity, love and empathy for humankind. If the only reason I ever started the blog was for you to read these words, than everything I have been through is all worth it.

    I love you mom, always and forever. There is none greater or better than you.

    Melissa

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