I sat in the middle of a grassy field finding myself among a stampede of horses. In the midst of the stampede, I was picked up by one and the sheer rush of being carried among hundreds of horses terrified me. But what terrified me even more was the thought that my three children were… Continue reading Running with Horses
It’s amazing what you can see in the Lenten desert when your eyes are fixed on Jesus. For months now I have been suffering from some sort of spiritual depression, a less than enthusiastic daily bible reading, a lack of want for prayer and a leaving behind of the rosary. I chalked it up to… Continue reading Are you suffering from a “spiritual” depression? It may be acedia!
Everyone is afraid of something, We all have experienced loss, made mistakes, battled addictions or endured trauma. The world does not recognize our suffering because the world does not recognize sin. Darkness and light co-exist in blurred lines. Pornography is ok. Drugs are ok. It is all ok. We can’t scream out about our pain… Continue reading The Journey Home
The universe is too big and too vast to think about. It is too deep and wide and we are small, minute beings on a large grid. We ponder the scheme of the earth, purpose, meaning and 52 self-help books that tell us we can have anything we want if we train our minds to… Continue reading Read this
How do you dwell in a name? How do you stay there when it is uncomfortable, oppressive, against your own will? How do you stay inside something that you cannot see? What keeps you coming back for more? This name that may or may not have been revealed to you. This place that draws you… Continue reading Those who love God’s name will dwell in it
Far it be for me to always understand the ways of God. Many days I feel trapped in a spiritual prison without bars, where my solitary confinement has been preceded by my falling away from the face of Jesus. This usually occurs for me when I cannot see things through the eyes of Christ, I […]… Continue reading An examination of conscience we can all understand
On the way into work, I had a thought that sparked some creativity in me, inspired me. It was a unique thought that I knew didn’t come from me, so I am sharing it with all of you. This is what I heard, “Take all of the things that have been said to you. The… Continue reading Life with words
We all have a message. God has made us each unique and accounted for. We have our own victories and struggles, and we need to be able to own all of it. I have tried to write for twenty-four hours and just couldn’t. Sometimes I am just stifled by the world. Many times I just… Continue reading What is your message?
The challenges of motherhood are many, but it is who I am. I never asked God to make me famous, rich or powerful. I never asked him for a big house or lots of friends. I grew up with a sense of knowing, what I now know is my vocation, motherhood. There was never anything… Continue reading I will meet you
How do you deal with pain? You suppress it of course. You stuff it down inside like, into the deep, the very deep until it must force its way out. It gets stuck in little places, hiding places, places where no one has been. It doesn’t move, just sits there like a stuck-out dagger. You… Continue reading The suffering of silence